Mum come save me.
@gmail.com, but it was the last few days ago by a group. I have been in a while, and the rest. the first one. the first one. the first one. the first one. the first one. the first one. the first one. the first time in the morning. I am a beautiful person. I am a beautiful person. I am a beautiful person. I am going through. we will not only did the first to write you an opportunity. if I could get to see the difference in price of one. it will take a moment of my own business and the new one of those people that I can get it right away and we are a couple days, so if I could get to see the difference in price of one. it will take a moment of my own business and the rest. the first one. the first one. the only thing that I have a great day. I am a beautiful person. I am a member
Hmm. I thought I wrote something for this. I guess not.
So this is a movie that I read about afterwards to substantiate my feelings, because I didn’t want to feel unsure about what I thought. It wasn’t phenomenal. The action is thrilling, haha it’s a Luc Besson thriller, shouldn’t have expected anything less. I gave it 3 stars. I guess the late night Ebert review obscured my memory, I did NOT write anything about this movie. Partly because I didn’t want to just critique. Praise is so much easier (see my obscene gushing over Whiplash below), but dislike should engender greater introspection. Scary quesiton: Is part of my dislike derivative of some kind of repressed xenophobia? Jean Reno, the actor who plays Leon, is wonderful as the naive, but also deadly hitman looking out for the crafty, but also vulnerable Mathilda, played by a young Natalie Portman. Reno’s portrayal of the immigrant’s struggle to adapt in America instigated a possibly childhood resentment towards my own parents’ immigrant struggles at assimilation. Each blunder represented a backwards step away from what my mind desired completely: conformity to an advertised American ideal. Although I’ve long since discarded that artificial ideal, I guess lingering sentiments still cling in my subconscious. Leon’s flaws don’t exist solely in my subconscious though. Watching it, I often felt that the film lacked a foundation or purpose in its developments. The acting was great, and so was the directing. Most conspicously offputting was the relationship between Mathilda and Leon. It wasn’t interesting enough to observe objectively because the movie was so blunt in what it told the audience, leaving no room for interpretation. God I’m idiotic as fuck because there is some nuance to their relation. Just not enough for me to pick up on. All I saw was a little girl with an Electra Complex and a lonely older man who takes up this little girl to fulfill some kind of gap in his heart. Y’know, the honorable desire to father a child or whatnot.
Manic chicken operatives: is this actually the font I’m using right now? Oh yeah. I want to move into the door next tO me.
I’m in Bosnia here it’s here. Loose endorphins
misremembering all the start dates to my obsessions
everything is so
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It’s easy to be an eloquent writer, take something mundane or thoroughly uninteresting and add interest to it- agitate it like you would a bowl of salad or bottle of pickle juice. Pound it with your over-interpretive analysis of its properties and significance. There’s a word I’ve forgotten, it was a part of my lexicon that I abandoned in 12th grade. I had a garbage chute that I tossed all my aspirations for journalistic merit down- tied up and labeled “pretentious”. I’m digging them out today, it’s in one of my docs – I know it. I focused more on developing an ironic sense of irony, where nothing I wrote or did was serious- even if the whole f**k u attitude was taken seriously, it still wasn’t, like a retarded mobius strip in multi-layers. I focused on editing my excess use of words- partly beause of Wilde’s suggestion in a piece we read last year. Trying to find that correct balance of expressive fluency w/o the nauseous prevalence of my stuck-up style. This led to much use of colloquialisms and trying-hard-to-not-try-hard instances of absolute failure. It didn’t make sense anymore (like the last sentence). Maybe with my departure from this style I can somehow salvage from both long-term experiences a combination of the two extremes. Use more commonly recognized words, but don’t be afraid to use a word that truly helps you explain your point. Keep it simple but elaborate on points that are important to you or the assignment at the time. Although I would like to think that my mind is a steel-trap for words and their definitions, but these past months (almost a year) has made me realize what I already knew- without practice even the most convenient words fade away. Wish me luck, I affirm that expedient, effective and expressive writing will come into my life. Let it be!
here to express my thoughts on the ruffling and clangor of the outside world 10 feet away from the foot of my bed outside the door there’s a woman shaking things up, putting them down and turning things out into the air
im inside my cozy warm cube of heated air stifling air still air, the only movement coming from these twisted fingers and my funny faces
From the consulting firm of hard-edged experience and near-death encounters, comes the inspiration needed to get this beast going. Maybe all that glancing and static observation wasn’t for nought. Is that a word?
Coming soon, frightened expectations and prevailing circumstances (my overall youth and naivete) make for an often disturbing reading and writing time. I can’t know what I’m doing, and I know exactly what I’m doing.
And we continue. The most basic necessity: a topic. So I’m writing about 1Q84. Books recently browsed. “Browsed” because “read” suggests comprehension and retention.
1Q84 is a very very recent book by Murakami. It was released around 2009-2010 and the English publication came out in 2011. Murakami writes about the past so well that I believed this was one of his earlier novels. Norwegian Wood felt modern, like it was written in this decade. Ironically it was released in the 80s while 1Q84 which has that feeling of past eras was written in the early 2010s.
I’m hesitant about going on about the book because I will pause for….ever and never get on with any points. I’ll write about unrelated fodder and delay close eye-to-eye analyzation with the story. I feel weak like a floundering trout. Or bass. Clown fish. Finding Nemo, Dory Ellen Shows Netflix Marathon Breast Cancer Marathon Drugs Chemo Love Hair Loss Bald Walter White Breaking Bad Trailer Money RV Comedy Love Fat Love.
I couldn’t get this idea out of my head, so I’m here pouring my thoughts on this glacial surface of all mediums-writing. These ideas. My dream, just the one, because sometimes one is all you need for a good few hundred words. Remember. It was a TV show, sci-fi dystopia. I’m lost on the words before it came a thing structured in the slippery dreamworld. But I do remember a circular room underground, or at least down a flight of stairs. Filled with, I say 10, but probably more, people in a circle. Manufactured or robotic in some way, except two who had been mistaken for other people (?) she and he.
I can’t resist checking back on the list of letters and spacings either, slows it down a bit. Wordings-here I feel in their ephemeral nature they’re very much like patterns of leaves falling off of fall trees. I’ll try to direct them when and where they go, but it’s too easily forgotten.
She and he fighting on the steps of an imperial stepcase, orchestra the size of an army to their left, a camera wide shot that spans upwards from their weapon-ed figures. Maybe these are their counterparts. Anyways.
In the room I’m living in there’s all black and all white, and the other day were collected writings focused on the idea of liminality. Cheesy first suggestion: write it in half-light, somewhere where I can do that (old-fashioned library, someplace with the adjustable light switch….so most likely the lounge at 4am. was expecting to be Morgan Freeman in Se7en)
I can’t help looking at all the leaves piled up either and can’t help feeling accomplished, like that’s enough, no more needed. But there were sparks in my brain earlier about the instances of liminality. Oh: of course, the state of mind in between asleep and awake. And awake and asleep-hypnagogia. The instance in a remembrance before the remembrance is identified, so they’re just unnamed aspects floating (why do they float?). Why do names anchor + and their purpose (they are here to bring light, oh and so you can past tests).