10 Day Journaling Challenge: Day 3

Inspired by an accidental subscription to a Skillshare class taught by Emily Gould. Read her old blog here.


I’m thankful for deep sleeps. I’m thankful for the reliable death I experience each night. I’m thankful to the way my body feels after resting. I’m thankful for my memories of dreams and the dreamlike memories of my waking life and how they feed into one another with time. I’m thankful for the upright position I’m able to maintain while writing this. I’m thankful that I don’t feel too burdened by finances right now, that I’m not completely cut off from love, and that I don’t feel like dying each time I wake up. 

Today I noticed a dream where I slept and woke up to a world where going to church meant professional success. Today I woke up and noticed that this might be the case. Today I noticed I’m sick, not in a spiritual way, in that I’m mostly dead, but physically, emotionally, mentally sick. Today I noticed the inertia i takes to move one’s hands across a Mac keyboard to peel back feelings and drop them in the clear acid of day. Today I noticed the absence of present pain and the presence of absent pain of the past – my childhood. Today I woke up and noticed I had dreamed of a hybrid churchxhiring event event where attendees wore robes in a school gym, where I took the wrong papers when they announced my already wrongly written note, where I ran around looking for the correct ones from random family members hoping to avoid me, where I picked up an order from a hybrid NYC alley and the entrance to the church at Kirkwood – where I found the chicken porridge of my youth steaming next to me on a bicycle out of view between the chain-link fences at blue night. Today I noticed the concern these dreams expressed, today I noticed their empathy as my own anxiety. Today I noticed a dreamed dream in which I escape both aspects of the past situation and find myself in search of a cheap art gallery to own and maintain. The monthly rent is 4 thousand and I make this in between shifts UberEatsing in Texas, half-time driving half-time running the art gallery. Today I noticed there is no cheap art gallery in Texas. Today I noticed I’m sad.   


Each day I’ll upload a post from the challenge involving the prompt “I’m thankful” or “I’m grateful” and “Today I noticed.” If you take up the challenge yourself, please share them with me! I would love to read and write together.

10 Day Journaling Challenge: Day 2

Inspired by an accidental subscription to a Skillshare class taught by Emily Gould. Read her old blog here.


I’m thankful for the music outside my window. I’m thankful for the croak and creak of the beat, of simulated toadful orchestras and synchronized squatting. I’m thankful for the low-light ceiling dim bulb in my room. It’s almost a mood. I’m thankful for my on-sale Himalayan salt lamp. I’m thankful for its de-ionizing faculties, whatever that means, and how, when I put it on at night, I fall asleep feeling healthy and at risk of living a slightly longer life.

Today I noticed the woman in the flowers of a tearaway magazine shoot. Her half-obscured profile populated by pink and green hues of what I assume are cherry blossoms and their to-be-bloomed sisters. Today I noticed a lace accent next to a magazine illustration insert on my wall fits perfectly in the frame of an Instagram video somehow open unnoticed. Today I noticed the illustration is of a room and a window to an outside river valley landscape at night. Today I noticed I was hungry but did not eat. Today I noticed if I don’t eat I’ll still feel the need to pee and maybe even poo a little bit. Today I noticed the side of my jaw aching slightly where strings of surgery floss hold together the parts of my mouth where a handsome surgeon extracted two wisdom teeth last Sunday. Today I noticed a perennial truth, that sitting upright moves your bowels. Today I noticed two brief wifts of Eagle Brand ointment, dầu, in the air to my right – carrying on a breeze from the open window to my left.


Each day I’ll upload a post from the challenge involving the prompt “I’m thankful” or “I’m grateful” and “Today I noticed.” If you take up the challenge yourself, please share them with me! I would love to read and write together.

10-Day Journaling Challenge: Day 1

Inspired by an accidental subscription to a Skillshare class taught by Emily Gould. Read her old blog here.


I’m thankful that today I had leftovers from a cancelled delivery yesterday. I’m thankful to the open container of barbeque sauce whose scent I can still smell washing over the smell of old roses from graduation. I’m thankful it’s not too hot this summer yet, that I can write with the window open and not feel sweat on my neck. I’m thankful the clock isn’t moving so quickly today. I’m thankful for the pepper battered Applebee’s chicken fingers and stale fries I refried in the pan before eating. I’m thankful for the two mozzarella sticks I had left over from last night’s late snacking. 

Today I noticed a new ice cream truck tune. Today I noticed the DMV’s hold music. 


Each day I’ll upload a post from the challenge involving the prompt “I’m thankful” or “I’m grateful” and “Today I noticed.” If you take up the challenge yourself, please share them with me! I would love to read and write together.